...6 years and 2 days ago, i was packing my bags to fly off to bacolod on the first flight out...
...it's been 6 years but i could never get over how it feels...you couldn't breathe...and your heart just feels heavy...and a warm feeling crawls up your chest...you want to shout out and pour all those tears out...but....it wouldn't bring him back....
i miss you tatay!!!
...wish you were here...you'd have a kick at having all those coffeeshops around greenbelt...the starbucks that you're soooo fond of is juz around the corner....can see you reading through your 3 sets of newspapers (always amazed me how you needed 3 sets everyday - but then, we always won the newspaper drive at school - miss you!!).....bet you'd love window shopping at all these stores...there's bally and colehann nearby...plus...the bars where you can have your beer or two...you would've enjoyed watching the ateneo lasalle game with us...bet you would've shouted louder than i did!!
...remembering...miss how we'd go grocery shoppin and we'd leave nanay with yayping...we'd go to those choclit and candy area and you'd get us what we wanted (not letting nanay know)...miss how you'd wake me up in mornings for school and patiently dried my hair after my shower (thought all dad's did that...i was wrong) - miss you!!!...miss how you'd play your nightly solitaire and you'd let me play with you telling you which cards to open...miss how you'd let me take a sip of the foamy glass of beer that you'd have while watching news on tv (but i never did like it)...miss how you'd try to carry me and hush me from crying (right after you'd scold me...come to think of it...i was trying not to breathe coz if you hear me sobbing and catching my breathe in between sobs you wouldn't put me down)...miss how you'd think i was asleep and you'd bend over to kiss my head and rub my back to whisper goodnight...
...birthdays drawing near - yes all 3 lourdes...miss coming home and seeing your "glowing" head amidst the crowd trying to catch a glimpse of me and my sister in the baggage claim area...you'd be at the airport an hour before our flight lands - geeez..just so you'd get the prime parking spot...i miss you sooo much!!!
...still crying even as i write this one up...6 years and 2 days ago - i missed the chance to say I LOVE YOU and hug you for one last time...i didn't make it early enough for that... :(
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This is a beautiful post. Thank you for sharing it.
The best and worst thing about love (true love of any sort) is that it never dies. It never goes away.
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